Okay, this isn't a break up nor and admission of failure, but I'm at the point in my life and art practice where I need to take a complete step back. I've been trying to do this for a while and those who follow me on social media would have noticed I'm a lot less active. My attempt at concentrating on developing my new body of work without distractions is really not working, I am consistently being drawn back to social media where I compare myself to other artists and feel so inadequate about my work that it creates a cycle of disappointment. So, I'm taking the final step and deleting my social media. My accounts will remain active, I won't be gone forever, but unfortunately I don't have the willpower to stay away from it and not let it disrupt my work. I'm going on a proper break.
I'm inspired by so many artists and have had some incredible opportunities through my Instagram, but I find myself looking at other peoples work whilst I'm in the middle of my old and new paintings, and I can't help but hate what I'm creating because it cannot measure up to what my fellow artists are creating. It's a horrible feeling and one I have been experiencing for the past few months. It's affecting my work in a terrible way and I'm completely disconnected. I can't immerse myself into the love of painting again, my creativity is broken because I'm concentrating on what will do well on social media, and that's not why I paint.
My work is meant to uplift, empower, connect, illustrate the divine femme, draw parallels between nature and our spirit and nurture energies. I'm not getting this and I can't continue to share work that doesn't represent this. The few pieces I have created this year have been lovely to me because they have no attachment to a larger series and allow me to practice, and this is something I need to continue to do, but on my own, out of a spotlight.
I'm really excited to do this, I haven't spent time away from my art accounts since I started them really, so it's going to be interesting what happens without the pressure of social media looming over my shoulder as I work. Jess is coming out in full force, unfortunately I won't be sharing any of it until I come back, whenever that may be.
My mailing list will continue to operate where I may share very few bits as and when I feel the need to depending on what happens. How vague of me. Be sure to sign up if you want to keep in touch. My emails are open if you want to contact me about commissions/collaborations or just to say hello!
I'm sending all of you healthy and happy energies, with all the love in the world. Thank you so much for your support and those who continue to love what I do. I'll see you soon.